And so it begins...

And so it begins…

A little bit about me… Nancy Marie.

I’m 49 (50 in 6 months) How did that happen? Time keeps on slippin’… Anyway, I’m a single mom to two lovely and amazing kids. 1 girl  & 1 boy .They are all grown up, married and my daughter has kids of her own. She has given me two beautiful little grand daughters that just make my world complete.

My life has always been good! Not easy but good!

I was raised by loving, caring parents. I smile just thinking of them and the fun times we had…Fishing at Echo lake, days at the beach, barbeques with the whole family, That oh so familiar sound of horseshoes, Christmas, Easter, mulberrybushes…sigh I miss those days. I miss being young and carefree… I miss when my biggest decision was what to get from the ice cream truck…

My nana lived with us, Oh how I loved that women…I miss her…we were kindred spirits she and I…

I have 3 sisters and a brother, So as I said life has been good but not easy! lol

Now we can fast forward to today,

I’m going through stupid menopause! There I said it!

She’s been after me awhile now… Those random “Is it hot in here or is it me?” moments and those days when I raid my own fridge tell me so…

I had  a D&C (that didn’t work) last year and then the endometrial ablation this last november that I think is working… I haven’t had much of a period since then, so I can’t go by that… but all the other signs say “Yes, Girl, This is it!”

Oh The hot flashes and night sweats. Two weeks of waking up all night to a tingle feeling that now I know comes right before the HEAT!

And then there’s the moodiness and crying all the time… I don’t like it!  It’s not me

Well it’s not the me I remember… And I’ll be damned If I let it claim me as its own.

I am going to fight it… fight back every step of the way… Kicking and screaming

I know I’m only about 2 weeks into this long journey, but I guess I’m about as ready as I’ll ever be.

So I will arm myself with all the knowledge I can and call on my family to gather the wagons around me…

This is going to be one hell of a ride…

But for now I’m off to CVS to get Estroven “Cool sleep”

Stupid Menopause!





9 Months in…

So I’m 9 months into this battle and I’m not sure whose winning me or the “Stupid Menopause” I think I am, but that could be wishful thinking lol I’m doing okay… I guess. I’ve gain about 20 pounds, BUT I’ve come to love me and my new curves! I don’t sleep well, thank you hot flush, But I have learned to love the quite of the house in the middle of the night and getting up early. Bye bye Beauty sleep! lol

” My hair has thinned, my thighs have not.

I can’t remember all I forgot!

I’m awake all night, I eat all day.

I can’t find the words I want to say.

Hot flash! Hot flush and nerves on top,

Oh dear Lord when will it stop!?”

By Me 🙂



Like us... This Cattleya awakens a mans desires & blooms twice!

Like us… This Cattleya awakens a mans desires & blooms twice!

The orchid is a flower that from time immemorial has awakened the most unimaginable passions in men. Ancient Greece has attributed  it to healing and aphrodisiac properties…

Hmm… Just like us 😉

Don’t we too, awaken the most unimaginable passions and desires in men…?

I for one plan on keeping that part alive during and after menopause!

Selfish as this may sound, I’ll be doing it for me! Yes, ME!

How sexy do you feel when he pulls you close with his hand on the small of your back and breathes in your scent before kissing you…

That makes me feel so wanted and desired. So sexy… I like feeling that way. I don’t think I would feel that way if I sat around in my sweats all day with my unwashed hair in a pony. To put it gently… men don’t care if you have make up on or not, if you have washed or unwashed hair… They will still “pull you close” 😉 So you see taking care of myself on the outside really is FOR ME! I like looking and feeling sexy… And sexy my friend is for all women… Before, during and after the Stupid Menopause. But as with anything we will have to work on it, but work on it for YOU! Strive during this journey you are taking to be the best you there has ever been. Strive to make YOU happy. This is your life, your menopause…Your second BLOOMING!

There will be so many things that menopause will bring that we will have very little control over but how you look and how you feel about yourself doesn’t have to be one of them!

So don’t give up on you.

On the inside there are days when I can’t stop crying and my nerves are shot, those days… yeah I’ll be “sweats and pony girl” But every other day I will pull on my best fitting jeans, a tight t-shirt, do full on hair and make up  and wait for my man to get home and “pull me close”

and ya know why…? Because it makes ME feel good and if he happens to benefit from it that’s okay too! 😉 But during this journey if I need to be “selfish” and just think about me and my wants and feelings… Damn it, I will!

Bloom on!




7 quotes about (stupid) Menopause by awesome women!

Kim Cattrall, actress

“I see menopause as the start of the next fabulous phase of life as a woman. Now is a time to “tune in” to our bodies and embrace this new chapter. If anything, I feel more myself and love my body more now, at 58 years old, than ever before.”

Julie Walters, actress

“If you deal with it in a healthy fashion then I think you come out the other side a better person. I’ve got so much more energy now than I ever had in my early 50s before the menopause.”

Oprah Winfrey, TV personality

“So many women I’ve talked to see menopause as an ending. But I’ve discovered this is your moment to reinvent yourself after years of focusing on the needs of everyone else. It’s your opportunity to get clear about what matters to you and then to pursue that with all of your energy, time and talent.”

Amanda Redman, actress

“How hideous for women of our mothers’ generation, because – while me and my girlfriends will talk about everything under the sun, including the menopause – it was something they didn’t discuss. They must have felt so lonely and embarrassed all the time. For me, it’s tailing off now. But I can still suddenly go that awful colour when I’m talking to somebody and sweat beads will break out on my upper lip. You’re acutely aware of it, even if they’re not. But the more open we are about it, the less of a taboo it will become.”


Karen Barber, former ice dancer and Dancing on Ice judge

“The annoying thing is that nobody talks about the menopause. Why is that? It happens to literally every woman in the world, and yet we’re all embarrassed about it.”

Florence King, author

“A woman must wait for her ovaries to die before she can get her rightful personality back. Post-menstrual is the same as pre-menstrual; I am once again what I was before the age of twelve: a female human being who knows that a month has thirty day, not twenty-five, and who can spend every one of them free of the shackles of that defect of body and mind known as femininity.”

Whose the 7th awesome women and whats her quote, you ask?

It’s you! What’s your quote?



Wives tales vs modern medicine

Old Wives Tales vs Modern Medicine


Okay, I’ve read a lot of really good reviews on this product so I’m going to try it out. I chose the Estroven “cool sleep” because so far the night sweats and hot flashes have been the worse part of this for me. I haven’t had a good full nights sleep in about 2 weeks and that really throws me off. How can I be the most amazing me when I’m tired and cranky!? 🙂 Stupid menopause!

Night 1: 3/21/17

Okay! I tried it and I liked it!

I definitely got a better nights sleep last night! Still had a few hot flashes but it was only my first night taking it. The hot flashes were no way near as intense as they had been the last week or so.

So far so good! Thank you Estroven for now being part of my arsenal to fight Stupid Menopause! 😉